I know what it's like to be detsroyed. to be torn. to be stomped on. to feel nothing. I know the feeling of hurt and pain. You feel like a loser, you know you're a loser. You want to die, and cry, and be mad all at once. Happiness isn't an emotion you recognize anymore. I know that pain. I've felt that pain. I've lived through that pain. I know what it's like when no one in the world understands a damn thing your saying. I know what it's like to feel like this is it, this is the end. I know what it's like to feel so hurt that nothing but death seems right. I know what it feels like to have your fucking heart ripped out of your fucking chest and torn up into a million pieces. It's a never ending, horrible feeling. You want to throw up, cry, drown in your tears, and ultimately die. I know what it's like to love someone so much that if you're not with them there is absolutely nothing in this earth that could make you better. I know what it's like to want to die. to give up. to drown. to bleed out. I know what it's like when you just want everything to end but you keep going and you keep pretending everything is ok. I know these feelings, i've been through this, and at days i'm still going through it. but you have to pick your head up, put a fucking smile on and livelife. you have to allow yourself to be happy again.
i have the world at my feet and sometimes i just want to jump off. I want to see life without me in it.